I’ve been feeling down all weekend. I’ve laid in bed for at least an hour after waking up simply because I wasn’t ready to deal with the world yet.
I think I’ve been down because I’ve been craving physical intimacy. I need to hold, or touch, or feel… and because I know that won’t be happening any time in the near future, I’m a bit depressed. I hate this.
Unlike most things, loneliness doesn’t get better with time. The longer it goes, the worse it gets, and I’m looking at a lot of time so far with no end in sight. Some days aren’t so bad, but the days when you just really need someone… someone that doesn’t exist… those days hurt the most. And there’s nothing I can do to stop it except wait for the desire to decrease, though it never goes away.
Russian plus size model Katalina Gorskikh
A compilation of most of my traditional work from 2013!